My struggle and silence of my Assault

flair required because this happened when I was 5 I was sexually Assaulted by a drunk guy when I was at the park by myself. I kept quiet for 12 years. I've grown to think it was my fault, but after researching, I realized it wasn't. It eats at me whenever I think about it. I hope no one else was Assaulted by the same man, it keeps me up at night and I haven't been able to sleep normally for years because of his decision to not keep his hands to himself, and I should've fought back, but how could I? I wish this on no one, not even my enemies. Thank you for listening