I’m still so desperately in love with my ex after 7 months of break up.

I genuinely don’t feel like it got any easier after 7 months. I still cry almost every day. I woke up with that heavy feeling in my heart, carrying it through the whole day, and then goes to sleep with it. And then repeat the cycle every single day. I can’t do this anymore. He was my first everything, I wasn’t his first anything, but he convinced me multiple times that I was the love of his life, and I’m the only sure thing in his future. I was 18 when we first met, he was 23. We were only together for 6 months, I know it sounds such a small amount of time, but our relationship was so intense. He showed me new things, he made me learn new things, I understood what is it like to be in a relationship, he helped me through my insecurities, he made me feel like his whole world. I felt like the luckiest person in the planet. I gave my all to him, like completely. We were in a long distance relationship, I travelled to him every single weekend, and I spent all my energy on him. My love for him was unconditional, I had so huge respect and love for him, it’s still amazes me, because I never thought that I could gain that strong feelings for a person. And suddenly, he changed on a random day. He started to be cold with me, made me insecure and anxious until I couldn’t take that anymore. After 7 months of break up we tried to have a conversation. He ghosted me, he made it clear how much uninterested he was of having a conversation with me. He moved on completely and he doesn’t care at all about me. That’s just making me crazy, considering that I still feel the same pain I felt in the beginning. I feel like I can’t take this anymore, it’s so unfair, and to this day, I have so many questions about his energy shift while we were still together. Even after 7 months I still think about what could I have messed up that made him fall out of love with me?I was too clingy, too caring, too much in love? Or did I become unattractive, my personality wasn’t enough? Tell me, how could I stop having those thoughts FINALLY? I’m seeing a psychologist, I tried everything to get over him and move on with my life, but I just can’t wrap my mind around it. I’m stuck in the past, I can not move forward no matter how hard I try. I need help, how did you guys moved on from your past relationships that meant the world for you?

My apologies for that long post. I just needed to get that out of my chest. I can’t take that anymore. I’m just praying to God every day to take away my pain.