Compulsive Femininity

I recently came out (27- not super late but it feels late to me!) and almost immediately I noticed that my whole life revolves around being feminine. I always considered myself high femme and assumed that once I came out nothing would change- but once I came out as gay it all felt SO inauthentic. It’s so wild that after about a week of coming out, walking into my house or looking in my closet felt like it belonged to someone else, not me. Now it’s been about two months and it still feels this way and I’m starting the process of updating it and it’s so fun to find a style that’s completely mine! I’m by no means masc, but I am honestly so taken aback by the way that designing my entire life around feminity was a mask and not authentic for who I am.

Anyway- not necessarily looking for advice or anything I’m just finding this super interesting and am curious if anyone else has felt similar!