Hello everyone- day 10 here !

Man it has been and up and down journey. Ive had good days and bad days..but if Im honest about where those bad days come from...I see that they almost ALL started with me waking up feeling like shit. When I wake up in the morning and give myself some space and allow myself to exist ,without excruciating pain from anxiety or other issues is NOT on my list of things I want for my life. The drinking has also started to disrupt my body chemistry even BY THINKING about the alcohol before I drink it. I noticed this as I was on my way back from the gas station with my beer in the car and I knew it was minutes away i would be drinking. I had diahrhea even before drinking. That in itself tells me the danger of putting that stuff in my body? Is there a more harmful drug out there besides alcohol? Alcohol IS a drug.

I made it 125 days without alcohol and then relapsed on February 22 which was a tragic bad decision. I regretted it every day and wanted to get sober again and I finally did 10 days ago. Im going to be able to enjoy the summer now instead of being hung over everyday