Just a thing idk

I miss my ex so much. We broke up on Sunday and I really need to get this out. Any replies are welcome I just need to vent.

Everytime my phone goes off I think its you. In my mind im still yours and just waiting for the next time we speak, which won't come for a long time. I would take you back in an instant. I know it's early days and im really not in the brunt of the breakup yet but it still sucks. You lost feelings and knew the next time you went to uni would be a struggle, and now I know how you feel I think it wouldve been too. I dont blame you, I dont hate you, and I wont. I get why you did it and I wouldve done the same in your shoes. I dont know if that makes it anymore difficult to get over you, as in, not hating you for what you've done. But I think it'll make it better wayyyy in the future for both of us. I miss you and I miss what we had, and its only been three days. I cant imagine how I'll feel in three months time. I think your perfect in every single way, sure I now see some ways in which you couldve been better. But I know that they wouldve improved over time. Your so incredibly smart, your gorgeous and funny and kind and you had such a lovely family too. I really do think you're the right person just at the wrong time. Maybe in a few years we'll meet again and fall inlove again. Im not gonna hold out for that though. You said you really hoped we could be friends one day, and now ive thought about it a little more ive realised I would love that. Who knows what I'll think in the future though. Although I know youd be a pretty fucking awesome friend.

From what ive heard from your friends I know you're sad and feel really guilty. Theres nothing I can do to stop that. I dont if or when I'll message you again. Just know you'll always be my first love, and that a piece of my heart will always belong to you.