Day 51 strong urge

I talked with my family about our past and everything. When I felt down and anything I'd just tune up some songs (mostly more depressing) light up some smokes and watch the outside from my balcony. Today when we talked I felt really down and honestly had the strongest urge go buy a pack. I am clean right now. This one was the strongest because in 50 days I only thought to go buy a pack now.