6 months since Liam died. Does anyone still cry for Liam and 1D?

Every month I cry and as more time goes on for some reason I feel guilty for crying over someone "i dont even know". I feel like everyone is kinda over it, so I try to force myself to move on but inside I feel like I never will. My mom recently got into an argument with me and threw it in my face how I never shut up about liam and I don't even know him, how it's not normal or healthy. My best friend who is also a 1D fan cried in the beggining but now it's like she just pretends it didn't happen and quickly moved on like "yeah what a sad thing that". But me? Nope tmr it will be 6 months and just wow it still makes me cry. I miss liam and 1D. My mind and world changed the day he died and im still mourning the before.