Post breakup trying to use sex a crutch.

Hello. I’m one week out of a month-long breakup, and it’s been rough. Last week, I slept with my ex. I’ve been feeling incredibly alone. I bought a house for us in another city, which means I’m now away from my friends and family. We had a very active and fulfilling sex life—going from three times a day to nothing has been emotionally and physically draining.

Before we committed to monogamy, I was involved in the poly lifestyle. Now, since the breakup, a lot of former partners have resurfaced, wanting to reconnect. I’m resisting because I know once I open that door, I’ll throw myself into it with anyone available just to fill the void.

This morning, I texted my ex: “Fuck, I’m so horny for you.” She said she felt the same way yesterday. I suggested we hook up when she comes by to grab the last of her things today—we flirted, and then she went quiet. I want her to come over so badly. And if she doesn’t, I know I’ll be tempted to reach out to people who aren’t good for me.

I don’t know what I’m looking for by writing this. Maybe just to say it out loud. Maybe someone out there understands