I’m obsessed with how I look and it’s all I think about.

I know I have low self esteem, but I’ve never been this bad. I do everything I can to look nicer, hair extensions, I get my eyebrows done every month, get my nails done, filler etc. But I’m never satisfied. My whole mood will depend on if I look good or not and if people think I’m pretty. I stopped going out anywhere for a long time because of it, and have only just started to go back out. I grew up the fat ginger kid so maybe that contributes to the way I feel about myself. The constant ptsd of being cheated on makes me hate myself too and I’m constantly comparing myself to the other girls. I just hate myself.