Sometimes I worry that I'm being unfair and settling..

But God, he really drives me crazy. He's so cute and sweet, I love him so much.

Sometimes I get in my head that maybe he's not really what I want, because I want better. I want better for us. I want us to communicate better, I want us to exercise more, I want us to be more stable. I always want more, and so in some ways it feels like I don't think he's good enough.

I'll drive myself mad wondering if he deserves better, if he deserves someone who loves him just the way he is. Someone who doesn't fight him and expect him to grow so much so fast. I'm scared, sometimes, that I don't love him nearly enough to be so selfish, to keep him tethered to me when he could be out finding someone who thinks he's perfect the way he is.

But then I catch myself following him around like a lost kitten... Missing him when he's right next to me just because he hasn't spoken in a little while. He makes me giggly and embarrasses me like I'm still 16 and full of butterflies.

I love him so much. I just want us to be better, together.