45[M4F] #Portland, Oregon: Sometimes you have to risk everything if you want to be free to do anything.

I’m in a committed relationship.

I’m very flawed, imperfect, selfish, impossible to satisfy, and nothing is ever enough. Well, at least when it comes to my sex drive and my needs.

I’m a friendly guy, if not socially awkward. I’m intelligent and prefer deep conversations about almost anything. I’m lonely and…well…bored with life.

I’m done trying to pretend I’m this person who always does the right thing. I want to do the wrong thing. I want to take chances. I want some sort of thrill in my life. I want to find someone else like me. Someone who wants to take a risk, just for the thrill. Someone who wants to take their soul paragliding with me. I want to look back at this time in my life and think “Wow, that was really fucked up. I can’t believe I just let go like that when I was in my 40s. What a thrill that was!”

This doesn’t have to be physical. It can be virtual. It depends on who I find, what our comfort levels are, trust, and chemistry.

Not to sound cliche’, but I’m up for anything. I’m not narrowing my search to any type of person (besides someone with a vagina), or body type. If you care about my stats I’m average height, a little chubby, and ruggedly handsome in a PNW kind of way. I’m friendly and intelligent. Funny and witty. Deep and intellectual. You don’t have to be any of those things. I get along with people from all walks of life.

It’s tempting to tell you to “be yourself”, but that can be a load of shit sometimes. If you’re here reading this, then maybe you are still trying to figure out who you are. So I’ll say “Be who you want yourself to be.” This is your chance to fake it till you make it. Trust me, I won’t know the difference. If you are shy, but wish you were more open; now’s your chance. Maybe you think you’re too serious and want to be silly? Go wild! Be a dork with me. Maybe you’re nervous and uptight about sex, but wish you could be more open to new experiences? Then let it happen.

Take your chance.