I regret having an abortion - at one point in time, I was completely confident in the decision I made. But now I am full of regret.

I am a 29 year-old female. Over the last two years I have had three abortions. During this timeframe, I had endured a series of tragic events (losing Jobs, major deaths in the family, financial struggles, chronic health problems, mental health crisis, etc) which led to me to making the painful choice of having these abortions. At one point in time, I didn’t even think it was possible for me to get pregnant based off of medical diagnosis. I know that it may be hard to believe that these three situations truly happened on an accident (I got pregnant twice while on birth control - after the first time I got pregnant, I started using bc pills. And after the second time I started using NuvoRing AND STILL GOT PREGNANT) but they did. Based on my circumstance, I was fortunate to be able to get these procedures done at no cost at all. When these things were taking place, I knew the reasons why we decided that an abortion was the best option; financially, physically, mentally, and emotionally but now that these things have passed, I find myself full of regret. The constant “what if” questions play in my head daily… what if everything would’ve worked out? What would it be like if I were to give birth to these children? Did I make the right choice? And now I find myself wanting to get pregnant. Realistically, the timing is still not right, but I wouldn’t be opposed. And I do not want to make an irrational decision because my hormones are all over the place. After the last time I got pregnant I got an IUD and I have been free of pregnancy since.

I’m not sure what type of response I’m looking for if any… But I just needed to get this off my chest. I regret my abortion and I pray that God forgives me for the choices that I made and allows me to procreate in the future when he sees the timing is right.