It's over for me.

I am a 21 year old male. I have no friends, not even "loose", nor online ones and obviously no girlfriend. I never had one. I never had any intimacy whatsoever. I was always rejected. I am 5'5ft tall. I have atypical autism. I have psychosis. I have a Skin disease known as Keratosis Pilaris or chicken skin, which basically means that most of my body hairs are ingrown. My looks are average at the very best, but I have been rated as a 2/10 by a girl before. I have been told many times before, that a girlfriend is not everything, and that I should just focus on myself, but it just isn't possible for me. People always say, that you should never be desperate when trying to date , but I am nothing but desperate. To the point where I can barely function as a human being. I have been looking into more of the whole blackpill thing, and I was quick to find out that I'm a sub5 and thus I found out the life that awaits me.

Furthermore, before anyone asks, I'm going to therapy and am on medication, yet it is all useless, as my therapists/psychologists never seem to understand me.

Is it truly over?