I just want to disappear

I live in a war zone , every other day my family gets death threats because of our religion and political views , I am angry all the time , I have wishes of some natural disasters to come and wipe all the people , I hate my country , I hate its people because 90% of them are Islamic terrorists fanatics . I can't get out because no country will accept asylum from here . The angry hateful thoughts are destroying my mental health . What should I do ? Please help .ps: I can't go to therapists because I don't trust anyone in the current situation