Mashida za malightskin ( I guess)😭

Long ahh rant btw Many people often talk about how male friends always end up falling for them sijui oh but not many of y'all talk about the female sector. This is a different type of rant lakini Acha niseme initoke. So I (21f) don't really have many NEW female friends...and by new I mean madem hatujajuana before my campus life. So I left high-school like 4 years ago and ever since then I've only met a handful of shawties that I can seriously say are legit friends(kusema ukweli sidhani wamefika 3) and the rest of my female friends tulipatana nao high-school. Actually most of my female friends tulijuana high-school. Now fast foward to campus life.... I have 1 of my high-school friends w me in the same school so I really don't see the need of making new friends cause its a taskkkkk. Wuii !!!😩 So I carry on w my life with my one friend who ends up being my BFF in school and end up meeting other amazing new people and they become friends....but here's the thing almost wote ni wanaume🤣 Idk if it's subconscious or that's just where I'm comfortable but I didn't notice till one of my coursemates mentioned it as I was passing and it had me thinking. So I try to be a girl's girl (ata sielewi if that applies in this situation) and just be friendlier to the females cause why not? So I do tusmall small acts of kindness from casual nods to switching from my normal RBF to welcoming smiles and even exchanging novels!! Tell me why every single female I try to befriend ends up confessing later that they've had a crush on me sijui ati "I've always liked you but you never noticed" like miss girl ebu kwanza relaxxx😭 Maneno ya makasi siezi kataa lakini si kwanza ata you get to know me ...maybe mimi ni mwendawazimu 💀😔 Like I can make a good female friend frfr Personally niligive up cause I was collecting hoes everywhere like Trey Songz in his prime na haibambi plus I still have the other gender to think about like where does it enddd??? The idea of trying to make female friends ilinitoka and I continued w the homies and tbh when people say "I prefer male friends than female friends" I can't seem to get it cause men are just MEN. Yaani ata sijui kuexplain but there's just something about having females by your side that makes you as a woman feel seen and heard... but also men don't necessarily view life how we females view it so it ends up being as simple as ABC. The few girls I've come across who aren't really friends tumepatana na wao sherehe and that's all there is to it... tried initiating a relationship outside the party atmosphere ikabackfire vibaya sana ,confessions here and there to be precise. Now I'm left wondering where do y'all find these genuine female friends?? Naeza hire mmoja tu for the experience? Ps: I love all my high-school friends no matter the distance ❤️