Healing is painful, it feels so lonely at times, but it’s so liberating

I wanted to share a little positivity here. Breakups are horrible, for a lot of reasons. They’re heartbreaking, world-shattering, and very painful. But, after taking a lot of time reflecting and working on myself, I got to the realization that they’re sometimes necessary for your growth and healing.

I went through it all. The delusion, sadness, anxiety, resentment, anger. I spent weeks crying myself to sleep, thinking my life was over. That I would never love again. I sat with those feelings, as painful as they were. Let myself feel them. It felt very lonely. I felt like I was going through it all alone, I isolated myself so much, pulled away from my friends, family, and the people I love.

But after doing some deep work (therapy, journaling, psychedelic therapy as well), I’m at a point in my life where I feel liberated. And as much as my ex hurt me, I’m SO grateful he came into my life. Nothing happens by mistake. He came into my life for a reason. That reason has shifted, I thought he was my soulmate, now I believe he was the spark that lit the fire inside me. He was a catalyst for a change. A mirror I didn’t know I needed. He showed me what I had been avoiding, and through all the love, the confusion, the pain, I found myself. I’m not the same person I was a year ago. I’ve grown, I’ve cried, I’ve healed. And don’t get me wrong, I’m still healing. But he was part of that transformation.

I don’t want to get back with him, ever. I’m far past that. But I hope that I get the chance to say all of that to him one day.

All of that to say that there are better days ahead. Things happen for a reason, and that pain, you should turn it into strength. Turn it into a valuable lesson. You are not weak for feeling the way you feel. It’s strength. Let yourself feel it, sit through it, cry, scream if you need to. But look at the bigger picture. The version of you a year from now will be healed, happy, and ready to give love to someone who truly deserves it. That’s priceless. I’m rooting for you, and you will get out of this stronger than ever! 🫶🏼