Gimme your most ridiculous “There’s no going back from this” meltdown moments

Tonight I had my first meltdown in 3 months and in terms of recovery time it’s been very fast because I have no plans for the next few days anyway so I don’t feel pressure to recover in a set timescale. Shoutout to my boyfriend for hugging me as I laid down on the grass in the Starbucks car park like a crazy lady 🙈

When I was working full time (30 hours is considered full time in the UK) last year my meltdowns were pretty much weekly at one point. Since I’ve moved to uni they’ve been much less regular because I’ve not taken on more than I can manage in terms of workload and my scholarship allows for that which is incredible.

BUT this got me thinking, you know in that moment of rumbling (for me at least) there’s always one thing that happens where it’s like, nope there’s no coming back from this the meltdown is inevitable… and it’s almost ALWAYS something that in hindsight is ridiculous.

Tonight’s was “the noise of the car indicator is so loud I need to cover my ears” in the past it’s mostly been ARFID related ie the bread is wrong, my food is touching etc which I am fully aware is nuts but that never stops the very real emotion that comes with the meltdown. I think my all time favourite was “I can’t see the back of my hair the way it really is because it’s reflected in a mirror so it’s not a true likeness”

My friend said the other day that the weirdest thing about the one time she saw me have a meltdown was my ability to still crack a joke despite the tears because she didn’t know it was possible but I feel like as horrible and viseceral as they are I can generally find humour in the aftermath.