Greetings

Hello I was just invited here and see people are introducing themselves so here I go.

I have suffered a lot with mental illness seriously for 20 years, and had challenges before then too. It started really bad when I was about 21, and I had a panic attack in class. but what I think triggered the attack, is what I was thinking and feeling. I followed the conversation in the classroom from waiting outside, and listened intently. then I thought about how the students got more students to talk, then the teacher started talking about the religious significance of st. Patrick's day. I then thought that maybe God wanted me to see this, and I felt a feeling go through my head down my body, or from the bottom up, I felt myself smile. then I rush of adrenaline sent me into a panic attack.

this started me down a path of trying to cure my anxiety and depression, and panic. and now, intrusive thoughts.

I have tried yoga, meditation, reading christian scriptures, listened to videos on Buddhism, reading power of now and similar books, and Ive done binaural beats singing bowls and meditation hypnosis/guided.

I'm on meds for mental health but Im looking for a way out. ketogenic diet seems to work for people with mental illness( severe). if there's energetically things I can learn that can help id like to know.

I do feel what people are calling chills here when I meditate. also when I read scripture and pray. if I had more insight on this I'd appreciate it.