Longshot Video search

Several years back, about 2019, I was watching video’s on YouTube about paganism, witchcraft and Druidry. I stumbled on a video of a young witch who was talking about missing Jesus, not the church, not Christians, not god the father, but Jesus. I used this several times to show people that it was OK to miss some things from their former spiritual relationships and that it didn’t invalidate them as pagans. I’ve lost the book mark I had to the video and can no longer find it. Anyone know the creator or video I’m talking about? I’ve searched every way I can think of.