how to fix my life?

in december 2023 i went to the movies with a friend and somehow someway ended up on my phone fully extended arm looking at pictures through my camera roll. most of these pictures were of men and one of them was a screenshot of a gay dating app.

my life has not been the same since.

i've known this friend for over ten years but we reconnected in 2022 and since 2022 until december 2023 he would travel to my city (1 hour away) and back once a month and we would hangout one on one and go to dinner and an activity. he would do this for me without question. we are both men, and 26

since theincident he's told everyone i came out as gay as i sent a long message strictly apologizing for being on my phone. the message was sent to apologize hoping we can hangout again but he's told others i came out.

i feel horrible for what i've done and letwting him drive an hour and back

we never hangout anymore

but since also then, and the people he's told - my other friends have become distant with me

i have literally no friends now but i also don't want to accept that i am gay as i have absolutely no romantic or sexual interest in men

on top of these issues, i was recently involved in an accident and no clue how to sort this out. i am overweight asf and no clue how to address this

what should i do?