Heartbreak is killing me

I don't even know what I'm doing on this subreddit. I just don't have anyone to really talk to, and I'll only be getting a therapist in late August. I just wanna get everything out for once. Backstory before I start venting: Half a year ago, I(F15) met a guy (M17) Friendly, tall, kind, funny, same interests, just comforting to be around. I'm Russian, he's Moroccan (Let's call him Bob). It was the first time I actually fell in love with a guy who was genuine, respectful and not just horny like many my age. I feel like I can't trust anyone in this generation, and he was a rare gem. We spent our first few dates together outside, talking for hours, laughing and sharing. I still remember the moment I fell in love with him. It was straight out of a movie scene. It was late, already getting dark. We were on a bridge, walking across the Rhein (river in Germany). Bob picked me up, laughed and spun me around while I clung to him. When he set me down and I looked at him, I just... Felt it all. The reason I mentioned our nationalities earlier was because of my mother, (F49). She's quite racist, even if it's not outright. I didn't want to tell her about Bob. She went absolutely crazy, telling me all he wants is to get in my pants (She has asked me many times before if I was pregnant because I threw up. I'm a virgin. I had food poisoning and the other time I had a hangover.). She makes me uncomfortable, really. She forced me to block him, installed parental controls to lock any app that could be used for texting. I couldn't call friends, couldn't text them, anything. That luckily only lasted for a few days until I got Whatsapp back. I wrote my mother a letter and just put it in her bedroom before I went to sleep at my best friends place. After that, Bob and I were allowed to meet once a week. In January, I suddenly got blocked by him. I didn't know why, if I did something wrong or something. Only months later, I reached out and he explained that he had been depressed because of his family situation, didn't have time for a relationship. He also told me he's in a new relationship now tho and that he sometimes regrets blocking me. On top of that, I'm being bullied at school. Everybody knows me, but nobody likes me. I'm not sure why. Pressure has been building up in me, and I can't handle any of this anymore. I'm going out less, I feel like I'm carrying a ton of bricks around, and all I wanna do is lay in bed and cry myself to sleep. I think about everything that we couldve done together, dates and kissed and hugs, late night talks and comfortable silence. I think about who the fuck his new girl is, I think about why he immediately went for a new relationship after he got better. He thought I didn't love him anymore. He said he thought I lost interest because I "wasn't reaching out" (I was texting him daily before he blocked me). My family and some friends don't seem to notice how bad everything is going. I wish I could yell at my mother for robbing weeks and months of my relationship because of her stupid rule. I wanna scream and cry and hurt somebody in rage of the unfairness. I never thought I'd ever go through heartbreak, but now I am. I can't move on, it's still a fresh wound. My best friend(F15) gets pretty pissed off whenever I talk about him. I get that I've been talking a lot about Bob, but man, I need somebody to listen to me before I do something drastic. I just need support from the girl I trust the most in this situation. But now I feel like I can't ask her for help or ever tell her about another relationship ever. (She was unsupportive of me and Bob being together and cheered when I told her he blocked me.)

I need help, but I don't know how to reach out to anyone. Thanks to anyone who took their time to read this stupid teen drama tho lol