rant but any other infj’s feel like they might be tricking themselves?

i have been interested in mbti and cognitive functions for several years now. when i first took the 16 personality test (it was 4 years ago and i was uneducated) i got intj which i felt was pretty accurate. but after doing my own research and taking more accurate test, i ended up being an infj. i think infj is really accurate in the NiFe sense, how i think about my life and the world, my thinking does seem to coincide w NiFeTiSe lineup. I have written a couple papers on the cognitive functions so i feel like i am educated enough, but i dont know sometimes i think i might be tricking myself. i dont think i feel special being an infj but what if i subconsciously do and so i trick myself into thinking that way. i have thought this for awhile but was just curious if anyone else felt the same.