I found out that I am adopted. I don’t know how I’m ever going to forgive my parents.

I found out that I’m adopted this week — I’m 19 years old. I never had any idea, no one ever told me or ever suggested I wasn’t related to my parents. My parents don’t know that I know I’m adopted. I haven’t really spoken to them properly since I found out and now I don’t even know how I’m going to face them.

Since finding out I’ve had the opportunity to speak to my biological father over the phone and he explained a lot. I was born when my bios were 15 years old. They were pressured by their families to give me up for adoption, and my parents were friends of my bio maternal grandparents.

I don’t know how I’m going to describe anything I’m feeling. I’ve had less than 2 hours of sleep each night since I found out and I’ve just been feeling like I am not even real. I am struggling so hard and I feel like I have no one.

I have always felt like a failure to my parents and now I’m not even their real son and I am so scared that when they find out I know they won’t want to be in my life anymore. I feel so broken.

I’ve always thought I was so much like my dad I thought I looked like him and now I don’t even know myself anymore. I don’t know what to do.