I really hate myself right now

I know I am a bad person for allowing myself to get a crush on someone while I’m still married. Regardless of how bad my marriage is. I didn’t want the crush, didn’t ask for it and I didn’t act on it.

However, the crush ran kinda deep. I wasn’t going to divorce and hop right into something with the crush. But I honestly thought she liked me back. At least a little.

Last night I got confirmation that she’s way outta my league. For a few days my short bald self thought a cute white girl could be into me 🤣 it’s actually kinda funny.

Obviously she owes me nothing. She’s single and on her own. It was my fault for going out with the group last night and watch her get picked up by a real man. I take full responsibility but it still sucks and I hate myself so much for letting this happen.