Life is uncertain and I feel like shit

I’m trying to start a business, but also trying to start a modeling career on the side, which, by the time I lose enough weight to let the world see me, I’ll be 29-30 which is old for a model but it’s my dream so I’m going to pursue it. And the business could fail. And the modeling could fail. And I feel like shit recently with low energy. I have to clean the apartment today but I feel like shit and don’t want to do anything at all.