I hardly make any money but my husband is the breadwinner

I’m with an emotionally abusive man who cheats on me. I’ve been scared to leave him only because he makes more money than I do. I’m scared that alimony won’t be enough to survive without his income. I have been slowly stealing money from him, he won’t notice since I manage our finances. I’m smart about it too it’s not a random withdrawal.

I just don’t know what to do financially speaking. I have one nonjudgmental close friend I can live with until I get back on my feet, I just feel so bad doing that though but I don’t really have many other options financially unless if I want to keep living off the man who cheats on me