craving and longing for love

Problem/Goal: nag post nako last time abt sa prob ko dito but i deleted it na. F here anyway im still craving for love and attention since he neglected me, and recently i wonder if i talk to someone i barely know😵‍💫 hindi naman ako actually nag hahanap that time, i just want na may kausap ako to feed my soul for love. then bored kami ng friend ko and we dl ometv, to mess around and talk to strangers just for fun.

the country we pick is canada since balak ng fam ng friend ko na lumipat sila don in the future and mag tanong tanong ng system don and abt sa living, and after that may naka talk kami na mag tropa actually filipino sila, and we talk a lot then na punta na sa reto reto ganon were just fooling around with them tas bye ganon, after mga 10 mins siguro sila nanaman yung naka usap namin pinakita nung friend ko ung ig ko, then i fb din naman nakakahiya kase ganon parang torpe vibes ba, then he called me sa ig like we knew each other and until now we’re talking every day even nasa work sya or eating while he’s driving, typical routine ba. then nalaman ko na nag paplan sya umuwi dito sa ph for vacation and he booked a flight already. he ask me na mag kikita daw ba kami and im not sure 😭😭 parang serious naman sya and single naman den ako hahahahahaha and mas gusto ko ahead sakin🥲

just thinking na baka maging heartbreak ko nanaman to kase may attachment issues ako and palo den mag overthink. i think its time naman na for a fresh start since im so lonely 😭 and cravings ko ang love and attention!!🥹 Tama ba nanaman tong gagawin ko kase gusto ko na talaga mag mahal literal🙃🙃