Avoidants ruin lifes

I am so done. So so done. I feel so much rage, so much of a rollercoaster, i DO NOT wish anyone an avoidant in their lifes i am so terribly angry at myself it feels like i betrayed me cuz i loved an avoidant too much. Gave my all for someone who couldn‘t even give a conversation and blocked me. These myths of them coming back especially after leaving the end open BETTER BE TRUE cuz i‘m so so so done.