Just finished last of us part 2 playthrough after my estranged father's death and regretting it

Didn't have much emotion after he passed a few weeks ago. Thought replaying part 1 and playing part 2 would be a good way to get any emotions out. I knew most of part 2. But still regretting playing it. Was not a good idea haha. Not too far off Ellie in age. I had a very similar conversation to the final conversation flashback we get at the end but I never followed through. Not that he deserved me too. But still everything hit as the credit roles and I'm here regretting playing this game at this time haha