To B, the former bestie who ghosted me 5 years ago

Hi B - it's been 5 years since we saw each other and had a conversation. Then covid happened and you stopped replying to my messages. You dropped me and our barkada without any explanation... prior to that we didn't have a fight or issues that we know of. You just exited, na parang bula, na parang di tayo naging magkaibigan simula Grade 6 tayo.

Hinabol kita. I checked in on you many times, tried calling and texting, even told my mom to message your mom para kamustahin ka. Tita said you were doing okay. But I didn't get anything from you despite all that.

Every christmas/new year, every birthday mo, binati kita kahit di mo ako pinapansin at binabati pabalik haha. Nagstop lang ako nung 2024. I guess napagod na rin ako. Made new friends. Got busy. Alam mo, andami na rin nangyari sa buhay ko. I graduated. I travel to different places for work. I studied abroad. Fell for someone and got my heart broken for the first time. My sister had cancer. My childhood dog (whom you met at home many times) died. I've had three near death experiences. I have a power tripping boss. Yet despite all the adventures and heartaches, all the lessons and challenges, the time that passed, the differences in the person I am now and the person you knew back then - sumasagi ka pa rin sa isip ko. You're one of my life's mysteries and biggest question marks.

It doesn't hurt anymore compared to the first year you decided we wouldn't be friends anymore. I admit that it took time and healing to get here. During the first year I couldn't eat at that famous ramen restaurant we frequented without feeling sad. But dw it's my favorite again now haha

Anyway, I saw that you're in law school now. Congrats! I still wish you well, iska and future atty.

Naisip ko lang i-post to kasi nagplay yung kanta na "Multo" by Cup of Joe kanina. Biruin mo, antagal na pero ikaw una kong naisip na "multo" sa buhay ko. On the bright side, I'm grateful it's you and not the boy who broke my heart.

Pero kahit multo kita, pinagppray ko pa rin na magparamdam ka ulit someday, na maging friends ulit tayo.