Alcohol kills everything

When I started drinking it was cool. And when I started having more it wasn't. In these craps I started to drink on moderation like 260ml before night and , unlimited on weekends. Results; Ruined my relationships with everyone. My top most priority was alcohol in any free occasion. Lack of confidence. Anxiety fucked me bad. Fucked up graduation. I don't feel any health issues because I eat like a maniac when I drink. But it affected my everything. I'm healthy and was still drinking. But I don't have anyone to speak. It's been 2 years and I'm celebrating my birthday alone..with alcohol.. All i have is a dark past and a hard future. University raised backlogs for money into 10x . Now with my earnings I can't pay to clear and graduate my engineering even though I know everything about it . I was a bright student. Untill my girlfriend died.. She was pregnant and we're about to get married. I'm now just a selfless hardworking functional alcoholic.. Idk when I'm gonna free from this addiction. I don't have friends neither family. I resemble the character Manchester by the sea. And nothing excites me .