It Hurts, Be a Man

TW: Alluding to self-harm/su*cidal thoughts. This is just a fantasy. I'm okay 💙

I know this is here for you to get off to. But does anyone enjoy the actual harm incurred by the person? Lately for me, because I'm a coward, I've been fantasizing about a man that can take me so deep into my mental illness right until the point where it ends permanently. That so beautiful and vulnerable. That takes so much trust. That makes me feel so good when you push me to go deeper. I need it so badly. Save me. Help me. Yes, my abuse experiences are so hot but so is this.

Imagine being the man that "cares" for me and brings me deeper into it, because you know its for my own good. You aren't taking advantage of a sick woman. You're helping. You're a good man. You're not doing anything wrong. You're not exploiting my pain for your evil and darkest enjoyment. We're just playing. You're helping me. I love you.