12 days. Really?

I honestly didn’t think I was drinking THAT much. Relapsing on drinking after quitting for several years. Yeah I drank less than before. But I still drank almost everyday for the past couple months. Most days just 1 8% beer.. and maybe 2.. but then my mind seemed like it was trying to find excuses not to go to work.. and I would binge. That became lies to work and just a whole bunch of drama. Including house sitting and drinking all their liquor. Then ended up in the hospital.

I knew then this was serious and I had to stop again. It was harder than I thought.

But many positive things have been happening these 12 days. Especially at my job. Usually nothing ever goes right… so this has to be a sign to keep trying. But I’m still very angry at the whole thing.