Scared that it’s over.

Goodbye to my beautiful family. I have loved you all so much. You have provided me with so much invaluable advice and knowledge. I can’t thank you enough for your love and support, even if it wasn’t all unconditional. I have grown to hate everything about the life I have led thus far and myself. I am ashamed of myself. I can’t wait until things are over. I miss the days of my youth where my ignorance and lack of intelligence/knowledge prevented me from knowing as much about the world and people as I do now. I hate everything. I had such promising relationships and dating situations only for them to turn sour. I don’t understand what happened or what I could have potentially have done. I’m going to end it all at this rate. I feel like such a failure and my loneliness is so intense. What the hell is wrong with me?! What have I don’t to deserve radio silence in terms of relationships/companionship?! It’s going to be over soon…