Help

So it’s been almost three months since I broke up with my ex and I’m still struggling to this day. There hasn’t been a day gone by I haven’t thought about him. Every time I’m in my hometown and see a car that looks like his I get frustrated and this wave of anxiety. I still follow him on socials but instagram he basically blocked but every so often I go and check out his page because I wonder what he’s up to. The relationship ended because of not being equally yoked and verbal abuse. I just I’m struggling so much everything we did that wasn’t good, we didn’t have sex but we went up to oral and that still affects me. I told him I’d never block him but I think I need to but I’d know that I’d be lying but I just don’t think I can do it anymore with the constant reminder.