Vent cuz i have nobody else to talk to especially now

ppl from my parish recognized me while i went on omeTV to sext and the priest pulled me aside to talk about it and shamed me. I'm making this vent cuz otherwise i would go on omeTV but they reported and got me banned now.

i wasn't even showing anything it was covered (suggestive ) but he didn't even let me say my part.

I always felt so restricted and i dont understand what this over arching theme of not questioning or trying to have a 2 way convo in Abrahamic religions. chrisitanity literally says arguing about religion is good it shows u care about it but i think this culture of subordination is so deep rooted that ppl dont care.

I'm just done man I'm really quite religious but I'm genuinely thinking of giving up chrisitanity due to how often shi like this happens and passes me off.