More mad Fo3 vs FNV rambling

I am doing a Fo3 playthrough with energy weapons. My main goal is just to do a "finished" playthrough so I can let the game rest. That includes beating the main quest (I never do that in Bethesda games) and a good variety of side quests. I am playing in Tale of Two Wastelands, so many FNV Perks and Weapons are available in the Capital Wastelands, as well as iron sights. I think Fo3 is great, but I vastly prefer FNV for it's better writing and to me cooler aesthetic. It also reminds me more of classic Fallout games. The whole reason for my current Fo3 playthrough is to finish that game and be done with it.

But the whole time I'm playing I feel like I'm wasting my time because I'm playing the worse game between the two. I have been really liking my build and energy weapons as a whole but I keep thinking that I should have saved that build for FNV. No matter what I do or how I try to think I just feel like I should be playing New Vegas instead. But if I did exactly that I would in turn feel the shadow of not having finished Fo3 follow me.

It's like that Edgar Allan Poe story of the Telltale heart buried under the floorboards. If I abandoned Fo3 without finishing it I would never get rest. But when I try to give Fo3 an honorable end it feels like I'm doing something wrong, like I am going against gods will of playing New Vegas.

This is all stupid and mad but I've been unemployed and stuck at home for a year now so I might very well be going mad. Obviously the post is exaggerated and such but somewhere inside it lays a big problem I have with not just these two games but basically any games that can easily be compared to other similar games. Or actually anything in life that has any comparisons anywhere. Thinking sucks but my brain can't stop doing it so it gets in a loop of overthinking untill it feels like it's gonna explode. It creates rules for itself to follow but then also feels pressured about those rules and thus does everything in it's power to avoid them.

I should jusy post this to like a Fallout shitposting or circlejerking subreddit if such thing exists because holy hell I can't even take myself serious sometimes because of how stupid problems I create for myself.