Am I depressed?

I’m 24 a year old female. I’m attractive. I go to the gym, eat healthy. I have a career and my own place. I have an acquaintance or two I hang out with every so often. I’ve been in a rocky relationship on and off for a year and a half now. We lived together and he just recently moved out, but we are still dating and hangout all the time and things have been fine so far. I have my own hobbies to try to fill the void but no matter what I do or who I’m with I always feel so fucking alone. I always feel so tired and drained. I always feel sad for no reason. It feels like there’s a constant gloomy storm cloud above me. Life just feels so boring and dull. I don’t feel joy anymore. I cry almost everyday and I can’t explain why. Or some days, I can’t cry at all and just feel like I’m on autopilot. My life just feels meaningless and empty. I feel alone and a constant dreadful feeling like I’m “not doing life right.” Some nights I can’t sleep because my mind is racing with negative thoughts. I don’t understand why I feel this way if everything else in my life is seemingly “fine”? I’ve dealt with substance abuse (alcohol) in the past but nothing tooooo crazy and I don’t drink much anymore. I was in a horribly toxic/abusive relationship about two and half years ago and it really fucked me up but I thought that I’ve moved past that? My family is also kinda fucked up but I try not to let it affect me that much. I don’t know if this is just “past wounds” or “trauma” I’m living with or what. But I can’t take these feelings anymore.

I don’t really talk to anyone about this I know that nobody can help and no one wants to hear about it. This is one of my first posts on Reddit because I don’t know who else to talk to..