I need help.

F20, 3 years ago I slandered someone almost to the point of suicide because of my envy-filled ego, which landed me an 18 months sentence. Luckily there weren't any permanent damage caused so my family and hers could reach a closure.

Ever since I got pardoned four months ago I have been only doing volunteer work at hospitals around my city, but I'm still stuck at home most of the time trying my best to find a job, but every place that I tried to apply for have received boycott threats if they were to take me in, so I haven't been able to land a job since then, though I don't blame them.

My parents only has a few years left before they reach the retirement age, and once that happens I might be left all on my own jobless and broke.

I have thought of commiting suicide multiple times since my pardon, but that would just be irresponsible and somewhat selfish from me, so I decided to live on to take the punishments that my life will throw at me for my stupid mistake.

I'm in desperate need of some help, not financially of course, but some advice to pull through before it's too late for me.