I have a boyfriend 17M but I 17F think I like girls

This is a throwaway acc cause I don’t want him to find this. We’ve known each other for about 5 months and been in a relationship for about 2 months now.

We’ve never had any close form of intimacy and never even kissed, this is all because I’ve always said that I don’t want to (might be demisexual or asexual too, not sure) he is repectful of this though and hasn’t tried to force anything, it’s clear he is attracted to me and he does want to be closer. Tbh I’m scared of intimacy overall so idk what to do about that T.T, but that’s another story.

His friends don’t seem to like me all that much but he is very much in love with me and he tells me this often. I don’t feel the same for him. I like him but I don’t know if I like him in that kind of way and I don’t feel attracted to him. He’s a good guy, fit, respectful and but I just don’t feel anything for him.

When we were seeing each other he started to become a little concerned cause he wanted to push the relationship while I didn’t really reciprocate that. I was the one who asked him the question of the relationship and I think it’s because I was trying to hold onto it cause it’s my first serious relationship but now I think this might’ve been wrong for me to do.

Even before I met him I posted a lot of wlw content about wanting to have a gf and I still feel the same way. I tried to push it away but I honestly think I might be a lesbian even though I’ve identified as bi for a very long time. In fact, it might even be stronger now.

I think he’s a good person and I respect him but I don’t think I can see a long-term relationship with him or any guy for that matter but the last thing I want to do is hurt him. He’s had a rough past and the last few months have been really rough for him and I’ve been there as one of his few supports along with a few of his close friends and mom so I feel like it would be very bad of me to do anything to him in this state.

He seems to have gotten even more attached to me over the past few weeks and he loves to text me and tells me he misses me often. I don’t know what to do atp.

I’m scared that if I continue this for too long it will hurt us both even more and especially him but I’m also scared that if I drop this relationship it’s going to be really hard to find another relationship or I might be to scared to take the chance or push it away due to insecurities but I really want to have a girlfriend. I know I’m still young but this has been weighing down on me for a while.

(we also go to the same school so I’m scared it’s going to be really awkward if we broke up 😞 Also scared he might hate me)

Do I talk to him about all of this? Do I wait until he feels better? Do I continue the relationship and see how I feel in a few months or so? I need advice if you have any experience within this please

hshshshshshshsg I am so lost

Thank you. 🫶