I dont know what to feel

Im so unsure of everything. I feel numb but sad in little ways. I think it hasnt hit me yet. I hadnt talked to him for weeks when it finally "ended" if you can even call it that. He didnt give me anything, no answers, not even a real goodbye. After over a year hes just gone and everything i had set myself up for is no more. I took the tags off clothing items i was saving to go see him today and idk how to feel. I think if i could still hear his voice id cry or be sad. I miss the old him but he wasnt like that anymore. He didnt love me or care. I just wish he atleast felt hurt. I feel like it meant nothing to him.