Dealing with constant rejection as a woman

Has anyone dealt with near 100% rejection rate with disclosure? I’ve had this since a child as I got it from SA and I’ve been rejected 90% of the times I’ve disclosed. The last person I “dated” said I didn’t deserve to have an orgasm because i had herpes and while he didn’t reject me fully he still rejected me sexually. I don’t know what to do. I’m trying hard not to think of ending my life but it feels the only way out of this torment I’ve been living with for years. I want love and affection and I want to know what it’s like to be wanted. I’m afraid I never will with this disease. I don’t know what to do