Sushant 19y old, need help pls gimme Idea's kaise kya kru i genuinely need help mera mind kam nhi krra

I’m 19 years old, and I’ll turn 20 on May 27. My father is a laborer. I came to Mumbai two years ago and did many jobs, but the salary was always between ₹15,000 to ₹18,000. I worked those jobs for about a year, and then I started working as a delivery boy, which earns me up to ₹30,000 a month.

Currently, I’m working with Zomato as a delivery boy. I work for 15–16 hours every day. I live alone in Mumbai. After work, I spend 2 to 3 hours cooking, washing clothes, bathing, and freshening up. I sleep for just 4–5 hours daily.

This has been my daily routine for the past year. I’ve managed to save around ₹2 lakh, and I plan to work for one more month before leaving this job. I’m glad I at least have some work that lets me earn money. I also recently paid for my mother’s operation, and she’s doing fine now.

I have no social life. I don’t have a single friend to share my feelings with. I don’t even know where 24 hours go every day. I had a girlfriend whom I loved deeply since childhood, but we broke up 3 years ago. She was very rich. My family lived in a rented flat in her building. We were classmates.

Our families found out that she was pregnant, and because of that, we had to break up. I miss her a lot—more than I can explain. I have no one to talk to. Sometimes I feel like ending my life. I don’t want to live anymore. But then I remember my parents' faces, the poverty they are still facing, and I stop myself.

I don’t know if I’ll survive the coming years without her. Today, she called me. She was crying. She told me her family is looking for marriage proposals and she might get married in the next 1–2 years. She said she doesn’t want to marry anyone except me. But her father said to me, “Look at your status. You’re not even in a position to take care of her. She’s rich, and you’re poor.”

Now, I want to earn money. I want to start a business that can give me a monthly income of ₹1–2 lakh. If I can't achieve this in the next 1–2 years, she will get married, and if that happens, I don’t think I’ll be able to live. I will commit suicide. But before dying, I will definitely build a business that earns ₹1–2 lakh monthly, so that my younger brother can take care of my parents after I’m gone.

That’s my story. But honestly, I don’t know what to do or how to do it.i genuinely need help mera mind kaam nhi krra buhut din se suicidal thoughts aarhe h and mere friend circle m koi aisa rich nhi h jinse m ye sab ka advice mang saku

If anyone has any idea, please help me in the comments mujhe bas ek disha dikha do baaki saari mehnat m kr luga