Complex PTSD after abuse -long term.

My perosn story was very simple before my abuser. I had 1 boyfriend that i broke up with after 3 years. Had a father figure of a wonderful dad. Then I met this “Prince Charming” that swept me of my feet and had proposed 3 weeks in. I was flattered and thought be was kidding but said yes. 3 weeks later I was pregnant. He wanted to make me pregnant ASAP. The abuse started then. Horrible I felt like I was living in a nightmare. I dump him and endured hundreds of thousands of calls, texts, emails, stalking, stalkers sent by him. Lost jobs because he’d be defamating. Unbelievable.. then I had the baby and it was unbelievable the whole time he made it sound like if I didn’t go back I was gonna be abused worse. A decade later (almost) I got statements and evidence of child sexuality abuse by him to my kid so I sued. I have been in this suit for almost 2 years and 60 k… he has pretty much lost custody but retains and retains attorney after attorney. The last year partícularly our entire life has been scrutinized conversations from A decade ago came to light and it’s been like living it alll over again. Honestly it’s affecting my current marriage … I feel as if he is my husband and my husband will do the same things so I immediately start doing the things that were done to me on my husband (not exactly but similar) and I’m realizing im very affected now. I don’t want this to become a victim becoming an abused type of thing.