Your experiences on dec vs vvaynse please???

Yesterday i wrote a post about my experience of starting Ritalin 10 mg x 3 a day . I started on Friday it’s now Monday and I have a to stop! Why? Side effects I was having where

• suicidal thoughts
• voices in my head telling to hurt my toddler
• feeling very alone
• wanting to just lay down on my phone
• finding myself licking my front teeth? Weird as lmao
• agitated by my partner being a good ball which is nothing new
• crazy fast heart rate

More side effects but these ones stood out and was extremely scary 🥺🥺🥺🥺

I had a review in 4 weeks but have made it for tomorrow to hopefully be put on anything but Ritalin.

Please tell me your experiences!?