Losing faith

Hey so, I grew up Christian. At least I knew of God but never really knew him. My parents were super strict when I was younger so I knew everything from verses to the Ten Commandments and would go to church every Sunday etc. but I never really got super close to God like that up until recently. Around 3 years ago I got into drugs and some other stupid stuff and pretty much hit rock bottom and at some point I had to just pick my self up cause I guess I understood no one was gonna save me. Started going to a church that was really cool and the pastor is really “progressive”. But he started saying his testimony and how when he was younger he used to do drugs, steal etc until one day god came to him and he started crying and everything. That’s when he really became a Christian. As awesome as that story is, I felt jealous cause I don’t feel like something that miraculous happened to me. I guess like I could’ve really used a sign from God or something back then but I never got it and idk but I feel like I was forsaken. Has this happened to anyone else here? I’m hearing more stories about this stuff happening to people and I’m just wondering when will it be my turn? When will he show me a sign yk?