a decent sized rant about a new crush please read omg i’m going crazy

this will be long but i don’t care so i did running crew for my schools play and during friday show, my stage manager got sick so the other casts stage manager had to come and sub for him. It took me a while to notice this guy at first. But he’s cute! He’s tall with a dark brown side part and glasses. Not really what i’m into. Huge shocker. He’s such a great guy tho, I talked to him backstage so much, much more than i expected to. Stage managers have to stand right next to the curtains the whole time so i stayed in the general area almost the whole time. To hear the show and to talk to him. He was quite honest and he melts into a conversation, it’s so difficult to be awkward with him. Backstage isn’t that big but whenever ensemble isn’t there there’s plenty of space but he seems to stand so close to me. When i was on my phone, he would come over and ask me what game i’m playing (what dork doesn’t know what connections is?) but i explained it and he started clicking the buttons ON MY PHONE. it was amazing. he was right next to me. telling me the nerdiness guesses ever. I was actually such a lucky girl when i think of it. Quite nice honestly! But he once told me he had cold hands and let me touch his hand which was actually weird idk why I touched his hand. Even when he told me that he was scarily close to me. Again, i didn’t hate it! But the whole time i was that close to him i wasn’t interested into him? It all started when i began to have dream after dream about crew. It was wild. But like 6 dreams in a row had him in it. I told my crew friends which later turned into us talking about him. After a little bit i wondered why he was coming up so often? Again im not complaining! But it started getting WEIRD when i began to see him in the hallway EVERYWHERE. I MEAN EVERYWHERE. He’s really cute in the hallway, he has a bag with him and he has his hood on which is quite cute with his glasses. But he’s a total speedwalker. That’s beside the point. It was freakish how I saw him everywhere and almost everytime he noticed me too. I figured out that he had resource the same block and i could tell he noticed me. Last week i went up to him and asked him what summer shows he’s doing for the other production and he’s doing the same 2 shows as me. I’m going to be spending my whole summer with him basically since shows take up a lot of time. And one show i’m the only person he knows in the whole crew. oh my god i’m so ready. I’ll be alone with him and we will most likely be partnered up for running crew since we are close in age and the other kids in our crew aren’t tall so for the bows i will probably stand next to him and HOLD HIS HAND. oh my gosh this is weird. Did i mention that he’s in the grade under me? Yeah i feel a little bad about that but he’s a year younger than me so i guess its not that bad? u tell me.