Is this the same as lying

Before i would create narratives off of my fragmented memories of what might have happened to me as a child. It ended in me being wrong about countless things and me lying about a bunch of things because i wanted pity and sympathy and it became like this "identity". A few months ago i realized all this and ive been stopping it. I never talk about that kinda stuff again. Now i just mention my fragmented memories and what i suspect, as well which family members i have fears of, etc.

But im scared because i have triggers and fears towards a lot of people. Like 5 people, 3 of them are family members and the other 2 not. So thats the people i suspect. Is that lying? Also i suspect trafficking is that lying?