No hope. I will end myself one day bc I can’t get off suboxone

My insurance doesn’t cover the sublocade shots. No way I can afford them. That means there’s no way I can get of suboxone. I can’t take the grueling anxiety and uncomfortable body jitters I feel 24:7 bc of suboxone. I’ve been suffering for so long. I can’t do it anymore. I will eventually kill myself. That’s the only solution. I can’t taper off suboxone bc how am I supposed to cut the tiny little films. It’s not fair. I wasn’t even a drug addict. I was just addicted to kratom bc of physical pain. And I couldn’t get off it so I had to take suboxone. So frustrated. Literally no hope. I can’t suffer anymore. does anybody else know what I mean? The constant anxiety? Physical uncomforableness. Restless legs? I CANT DO IT ANYMORE.