Family Forcing Abortion

i’m a sophomore in college (19F) turning 20 in a couple months and i recently found out that my fiancé (20M) and I are pregnant. i’m still relatively early (5 weeks 4 days) and we’ve been engaged for 1 year, together for a year and half (two in june) and we’ve known each other since junior year of high school but didn’t start dating until the end of senior year. i told my mom that i was pregnant and she tried to beat me with a wooden plank and is forcing me to get an abortion tomorrow morning. i don’t want to, because I've always wanted to be a mother (not this young, but i’m willing to take the responsibility) and i feel like going through with it will destroy my mental health and my perception of wanting children in the future because i always told myself that if i ever got pregnant id keep it because i personally wouldn’t want to get an abortion because the guilt would eat me up inside.

i was thinking to move down to where he’s stationed because he’s in the military because he’d get paid more to take care of the child and i, we’d get free housing. he asked my mother to get married as soon as we found out, because my family doesn’t want me to get married until i get a degree (in case things between him and i don’t work out i can still get a job and won’t have to depend on him for income) and she was panicked over it because she’s made a majority of my decisions for me over my lifetime and she feels like i don’t have enough discipline or maturity to move out to a whole different state with no family there, let alone raise a child along with it.

in my opinion, i do agree with that, but if i am not given independence eventually, how will i function in society in the future? i literally wasn’t even allowed to dorm for college because of my moms fears and now i have to commute 1/12 hours to campus every morning. i have my own thoughts and opinions and feelings and im tired of decisions being made for me because of what people think is right for me and because of how they would feel if i did it. it’s my life, and i keep being called selfish and a disappointment for wanting to keep my baby and get married and live with my fiancée who’s in the military and has a career? he’s also planning on going back to college after he retires. and i still plan and finishing school and i already have enough credit to get my associates degree.

i keep getting compared to other people in my family and people that my family know (my mom uses the example that our pastors two daughters are still living with them in their 30’s, and one is a doctor, and their son who’s in their 30’s as well got married a year or two ago and is expecting a baby soon) and how my cousins are in school, doing the right thing, and im not. but im not them. not everyone’s life is going to go according to plan or match up with other peoples. they only know so much about him because they only know what i tell them. they assume a lot about him and myself, even when i tell them the truth so even if i do rebuttal them, they talk over me and ignore what i say.

my fiancé is telling me to come and live with him and not care about peoples opinions because its my life but i also feel sad because i dont want my family to hate me. they told me that i can go, but if things don’t work out i cant come crawling back to them and that they’d be done with me. also my mother literally said a month ago that if i don’t want to go to college (because college isn’t for everyone) she understands if i don’t want to go anymore, she’s not forcing me. but then, she and the rest of my family are telling me that until i get a degree they don’t want me getting married or having a child. so why is getting a degree being forced upon me? they also called my unborn child a bastard and they would never congratulate me on it and that he ruined my life. they say that we “planned” the whole thing, and that im naive for following him and his words and he probably got me pregnant on purpose so my mom would let me finally move out with him, and that he would probably leave me once he gets used to me.

am i truly being naive, and should go through with the abortion, or should i move out? (sorry if this is confusing im an emotional wreck and nobody that i know or love is offering any support to and blaming everything on me everytime i express myself)